Bella Hadid has opened up about a string of abusive relationships she experienced in a candid new podcast interview – as well as sharing how her childhood has caused her “complications” within her personal life as an adult.
Speaking to Victoria’s Secret’s VS Voices podcast, hosted by Amanda de Cadenet, the model spoke openly about her “people-pleasing” behaviour and its impact.
“I constantly went back to men – and also, women – that had abused me, and that’s where the people-pleasing came in,” she said.
“I started to not have boundaries, not only sexually, physically, emotionally, but then it went into my work space… I began to be a people-pleaser with my job and it was everyone else’s opinion of me that mattered except for my own, because I essentially was putting my worth into the hands of everyone else and that was the detriment of it.”
The very honest interview, which was actually Bella’s first ever podcast appearance, also heard her reflect on her childhood – and how she was brought up around male figures who didn’t make her feel heard.
“I always felt like my voice was never heard growing up, so that’s why I have a lot of complications. Now I’m able to open up and speak my mind, especially within my relationships and within my family,” she said.
“I grew up around men – whether that was in relationships or family or whatever that was – where I was constantly told that my voice was not… was less important than their voice.
“Moving into relationships growing up, not having the boundaries of being able to stick up for myself and have my voice be heard affected me in my adult relationships, very intensely actually. My nervous system would crash, it was like fight or flight – either I would become silent and cry and just go inward, or I would lash out and leave.”
Bella Hadid has written on Instagram about her relationship with mental health in the past – but revealed that taking break from social media was essential for her wellbeing, as well as therapy, meditation and regular exercise.
“I don’t feel the need [to drink] because I know how it will affect me at 3 in the morning when I wake up with horrible anxiety thinking about that one thing I said five years ago when I graduated high school,” she said.
“There’s just this never-ending effect of, essentially, you know, pain and stress over those few drinks that didn’t really do much.”